blog: what happens when you're not around

Author: moiSentineL

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+tags:
+  - post
+  - life
+  - musing
+added: 2025-11-26
+link: https://nibirsan.org/blog/p/what-happens-when-you're-not-around
+excerpt: I am back?
+date: 2026-03-03T13:13:50+05:30
+status: done
+content-type: blog
+title: What happens when you're not around?
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+It's been a while since I've written and posted a blog. Precisely three months as I am writing this. I wonder what happens when I am not around. I wonder what happens to your creations, your community, your people.
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+Maybe they don't go anywhere. Maybe people still read your blogs (gosh I hope!), and maybe people still get inspired or learn something from what you've made. I just want to make someone's life just *a tiny bit* better.
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+Well, I didn't have a choice really. I had to stop creating. I realised I was escaping from a lot of things, taking shelter in making stuff. But I needed to confront my demons head on. I was going through a lot; emotionally, academically, and life wasn't about to get easy. I had to do something drastic.
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+I made a video update in late January, in case you're curious on what happened exactly, minus some personal stuff.
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+As of writing this, my final Grade 12 exams are going on. They'll end by 25th of March. And from that till mid-June, I'll be stuck in exam mode. My primary focus right now, is academics *only*. I realised that I may not have been as gifted as I thought I was two years ago (something that happens to high-achievers when they finally realise that they've been living around mediocrity and well, that doesn't help!). And hence, it is obvious that I have to/am putting in more effort on my learning to be at a better position.
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+My blog/website hasn't been updated since the last time I posted. I feel like a lot needs changing. The [about](/about) page, the [projects](/projects) page, the design (maybe). My beliefs on a lot of things also have changed, and I want accomodate those beliefs here. For example, my beliefs on school, Indian entrance tests, the need of flexibility (in terms of ideas), anti-dogmatism, technology, note-taking methods, *nix and so on. Oh well, I realise that I just made a to-do list for future essays/blogs. Stay tuned, I suppose.
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+I've also been considering migrating to [Geminispace](https://geminiprotocol.net), or contributing to it in some way (maybe creating STEM content?) for quite some time. I was extremely pleased when I discovered the [\~tildeverse](https://tildeverse.org/). Definitely some niche stuff, but I am definitely driven by the minimal, decentralised and hackable nature of such systems/protocols.
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+Oohkay now. I'll end this post right here. I gotta work on my blog-posting workflow (I am new to Emacs! Give me tips if you have any!).
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+See ya. Soon.